Too many Good-byes

Well, I did it. Its been a very long time since I've written in my blog, so I figured I should bring you all up to date. I moved, we completely closed the Car Doctor (as in everything had to be out of the shop) and I had to put my sweet little corgi A.J to sleep. Three very difficult good-byes all by themselves and I had them in within a few weeks. But .....its done. I had a lot of help. Barbara, the gal who ran Car Doctor is nothing short of amazing and did everything, and I mean everything so I didn't have to lift a finger. My youngest daughter Laura was a marvelous help as well. But it was soooo hard to say good bye to that business. I can still see my husband bounding out of the front door to say hello to me....smell the grease and hear the air compressor going. It was so much a part of Barry. But it will make my life simpler to not have to run a shop with all the things I have going on in my life. I had to put my sweet little Corgi, A.J. to sleep as his back legs were not working and he started to lose bowel control. Now that was a hard call. If I had not been moving, I may have had him for a bit longer. But the vet said that with the move and the loss of bowel control it was only going to get worse, not better. SO hard to put that sweet boy down. I even had to have my mother come and get me at the vet because I was crying so hard I couldn't drive. And of course, I moved. I had so many people helping me with the move....I have a lot of angels around me. I hired a moving company and they were great. Came at 7:30 and had me moved into my new place by 3:30. Nice. But turning over the keys to my old house was another heart breaker. My house foreclosed and was sold at auction and I had to give the keys to the real estate agent. Left the house in tears again. And now, this weekend would have been my 34th wedding anniversary and I did not want to spend it alone. So I gathered some friends together and we are all going to caravan down to Pismo Beach and going to hang out and go to Solvang. Hopefully that will divert me a bit. Amy has been staying with me for a bit to help me and get me used to the house. Its very strange to know that this place is MINE and mine alone. I'm learning to use a screwdriver. I also know how to call people and ask them to help me. So many good-byes. And so many blessings as well. I have friends. I have help. I am not alone, really. Besides good ol' God who just keeps hanging on to me and holding me up ,I have family and friends and my health. And that truly is the greatest blessing of all. And so.....to quote Celine Dion, "my heart will go on".....as will my life, albeit without the love of my life. So endeth another chapter in my life, and I'm glad you are all with me as I start a new chapter. Blessings to you all.