I'm doing okay!

Its been a looong time since I've updated my blog and I figured I would let all of you know how I was doing. Guess what? I'm doing okay! People are right, it does get better. Of course I still miss Barry. That will never end. I will miss him every day for the rest of my life because I will have constant reminders of him thru my kids and grandkids. Even now, little 3 year old Amiah asks for her Papa. Even she remembers him, as little as she was when he received his crown of life. But my little house feels like my home and I am comfortable there and feel safe. I am dealing with allllll the financial stuff. I don't like it, but I'm doing it. I'm taking a mini vacation with my best friend Michele to Disneyland next week. We decided we needed something to look forward to, so this is it! Just for a couple of days but hey, its a vacation right? So I will write again and let you know how that goes and maybe post some pictures of my mini vacation. Amy is out of rehab, and has been clean and sober for 5 months now and is doing well. She is in a Sober Living Environment and finding out that "real life" is a bit stressful when you don't always have drugs to retreat into. But she still says its WAY better than her drug days. Thank you Lord for that. Julie and Laura seem to be doing fine as well. My grandkids are great, they love me and I love them, my friends are faithful, God is faithful....and right now its 78 degrees outside. Wow. In the middle of February. Yes, we need rain, but I just want to go outside in the middle of the day and lay in the grass and let the sun hit my face. And I will enjoy the rain when it gets here. I love rain and winter and being cozy. Summer heat.....not so much. Although I am grateful for my little tiny air conditioner in my house. At least provides a bit of relief. So, yes it does get easier, bit by bit. We'll see what plans God has for me. I'm taking everything day by day and trusting in my awesome God to lead me to the next chapter(s) in my life. For right now....I'm okay!